Day 3: I am #7393, I can do this!

I am a member of the Adirondack 46ers.  In fact, I am #7393.  That means there were only 7,393 people who officially are noted for climbing all 46 peaks in the Adirondacks over 4,000 feet.  Hills have never been something I’ve been afraid of.205096_1030303286697_5546_n

Yesterday, I shared my run with my friend Jen Howard on RunKeeper.  After noting that there was a particularly hilly run she stopped and laughed, “hilly..haha…”

I looked at the elevation gain this morning and it appears to be about 16 feet.  Giant Mountain, the 12th largest peak in the Adirondacks, comes in at roughly 3,050 feet.  I hate to admit it but Jen was right…hilly..haha.  So, today I will use anger to motivate myself to run.  If I’m considering 16 feet “a hill” I have a long way to go so I’ll take this morning and be mad at myself.  I don’t need a lot of sympathy here… I let myself get out of shape like this and I can get myself back into shape..but today I’ll be angry at me… tomorrow I may try another source of motivation… like Matt Clement’s suggestion I withhold coffee until AFTER the run… can’t bring myself to do that yet.

Day 2: Ugh, I changed My Mind

I’ve been here before in several of my restarts.  I’m sore from yesterday’s 2 mile jog IMG_1715at a blistering 11:14 pace.  To my credit I had two very heavy children in the jogging
stroller on a hilly neighborhood run but, no excuse, that’s 6 minutes off the pace!  But, as Andy Mac reminded me yesterday, there will be a lot of “swallowing of pride.”

As I look out into the cold dark sky with a hot cup of coffee, I’m reminded why these reboots are so painful.  I’m out of shape, it’s cold and I would rather read the paper on my iPad and drink coffee.  Lack of will power?  You bet!  So, today I’ll overcome this with the simple fear of shame that comes from social media.  A lot of people were so encouraging yesterday that I couldn’t possibly take a day off now, already?!  So, I’ve got my shoes on…here we go!

There is a lot of swallowing of pride and many harsh realizations out there on the roads- we will never be as fast as we were, or even be able to run as hard as we once did.” – Andy Mac

The Back Story

Every good blog has a back story… a reason for being.  For me, this is very clear.  I wanted to create a place where I could detail my journey back to physical fitness…back to a running career that I enjoyed.  I can remember my competitive P0000433running days but, as the years have gone by, those memories become more faint.

I was a decent runner by any measurable standard.  I can remember running in Hamilton, NY and struggling to break 4:20 in the 1500 (4:17.11) and I can remember cold fall cross country races where I often struggled to break 27 minutes for a 5 mile race.  I had a few good ones, (26:57) and a few bad ones (I can’t even remember how man).. I’ll have to admit there was some googling there to recall exact times.

Fast forward fifteen years and I’ve been in, essentially, the same position. I can’t recall where, exactly, I lost the desire to run.  It seems like I just woke up one day and was fifty pounds heavier than I was in college and seemingly just done with running.  To be fair, I’ve had bouts of success… a ten-mile week here, a twenty-mile week there.  I’ve strung together a few “this is the new me” starts that last a month.  I can remember doing a few Reach the Beach relays around 2006 where I was able to string together a 30 mile month!  I did a half iron-man on about 15 miles a week in training…but never hitting over 30 miles in a month.  How does that happen?  One week on, one week off…

For me, it’s now about motivation.  I wake up at 4:45am every morning so I can prepare for the day. I do some work, get the kid’s school things ready and then start breakfast.  There’s definitely a chance to fit a 4-5 mile run every day there… why don’t I do it?  Because I’d rather stay warm drinking my coffee.  But, if I start to remember the feeling of being in great shape, the feeling of having more energy and the beautiful “aloneness” that running can give you, I feel like I could give it another shot.  So, I find myself here… on this blog.  The goal is to see if I can document (for my own purposes and others) the struggles and thought processes it takes to get back into shape.  Will it work?  Who knows…but at least the struggles will be documented and shared.

I’m turning comments on for this blog… anyone who’d like to do this journey with me, I’d love it!  I want to hear what you’re thinking…how the runs are going and what you’ve found gets you out the door when the warm smells of coffee brewing keep drawing you back in.  So, let’s do it!